I have recently been told that I am depressed by my physical condition. I really had to think about that.
I did let it get me down, let it make me feel old. Not only did I have physical pain but it was humiliating. However at no point did I ever quit. I did fail to muster up the energy to focus on it physically and mentally.
I went from being a strong and competitive man to what was an embarassment to me. I am a proudful person, I don’t shake humiliation well. Simple tasks like carrying stuff, wether it was the weight of the parcel or the fact that I limped and had no confidence in my left leg, where troublesome. I couldn’t run around the front yard to play baseball with my favorite ballerina. I couldn’t feel ready to be with the person I wanted the most. It has been a lot to face, but I am confident that I can face it and win!
I was way too young to think I was done, I just rested on my laurels a little too much. Thanks for the kick in the butt, I am back and focussed.