I must apologize to those around me. I have always been one to assume my problems are simply that, my problems. I remember sitting in the hospital in Akron and the MS word was mentioned. This jarhead has to admit he broke down. Why? I didn’t want to be different, I didn’t want to be a burden on those that I loved. I had plans for my future and it didn’t have people taking care of me in that plan.
I have lost it on more than a few occasions since then, sometimes openly, sometimes waiting until no one else was around to not look weak to those around me. Yeah most people who I have invited to read this are rolling their eyes right now.
I took this, as any other issue I have experienced, upon myself not wanting to bother or burden anyone. I know that hurt some people but please understand it was not done because I didn’t trust or respect you. It is just how I dealt with it. I didn’t ignore it, I didn’t surrender to it! It was a major portion of my daily processing. What do I feel today? Any improvements? How can I hide the symptoms? It took a considerable amount of energy from me.
I am so sorry for any hurt that I caused, but please rest assured it did not beat me and I am not done.