So, it has almost been a year since I took my life back. I have made some great strides, but must admit things took a big dip as I started thinking about it. Sure, I should have been proud of the positives/advances, but I my nature has me discount them, always looking to fix the deficiencies expecting that to take care of the positives. My health has not declined, figured I better clear that up.
I feel blessed (did I just say that? ) as I feel better than just a short year ago and exponentially better than the previous two years. Now when I think back and try to remember when something happened I can’t remember the year. Most of the symptoms are generally gone. Then what are you whining about? you ask….
I imagine it is like anyone getting into a fitness program or diet, early on everything is positive, then things slow down. Admittedly I have been slacking off, asking myself why even try. No matter what I do I will always be a freak was the major result of every reflection. My limp is less obvious but I know it’s there. I rarely trip over steps but when I do it just sucks. A few other things were going on which I am sure didn’t help matters but in general I was beating myself up pretty good. I could look at myself and say "stop whining" knowing others have much bigger medical challenges. I am not slighting what they are facing but this was me wanting to be me, to be normal and I couldn’t find it.
I took a nice long drive and hung out with my biggest support. I had no intention of talking about it, just relaxing enjoying family. Somehow we started talking about one topic and stuff just started flowing. A poorly timed trip since Blue Points weren’t in season yet but it really helped to get me back on track.
07.17.2007 – First back/shoulder workout (only half way through as I write this) in over a month. I had backed (pardon the pun) off due to the shoulder inflammation. Yes, very early and it could just be a placebo but definite results (hamstrings are crying after the deadlifts).